Thursday, December 6, 2012

dig a hole

"I'm going to go and dig a hole"
he said, to himself.
the sun was down
and a storm was brewing...
and it was that time
of day called night when he would walk
the streets looking for faces and stories
to fill his notebook with.
so later he could place that book
and it's coils under his pillow
and by osmosis, dream for lost ones.

but that is jumping ahead.
he clicked his poser
motorcycle boots
down Culver City Boulevard
stopping for a taco
and trying so hard to make eye contact
with the regulars and the lonely
instead of fantasizing of running through
brick walls
and reappearing in '39
to search for Scarlet with a tribe
of little people

but that is besides the point
he was on a mission...
he was going to dig a hole
and what that hole was for
had no bearing on anything
that mattered.
the only thing that mattered
was he was searching
for a mystery to solve
because he was tired of his own...
so he falls down his hole
like film noir alice
in a fedora
worrying about
anything but himself
digging deeper and
deeper still
hiding
refusing, with all his might,
to give up
time travel
for the rain.

for now this is enough

            Today I want to write something new. Something I never wrote before.  Well, that wont be that difficult of a feat since every moment has to be "new" by definition...I think.  Even if thematically speaking, I have touched on a subject many times before...this time is still NEW.  I don't want to stop myself just because I might not be original.  I actually don't believe in "original".  There is no such thing.  Nothing is brand new.  Even if it seems new it most likely came from INSPIRATION... "from the spirit"...from someplace outside of ourselves.  and who knows where it came from before that?....It's possibly all one big circle.  Or maybe a long road leading to infinity?...could there be an end?  Not for me to know I guess...for now anyway.

              So where was I?  something new....


there was a barbarian
who loved victorian homes
and morning coffee kissing the sun
as it broke away from the deep sea
once more.


that's all...for now....just a moment of something new...sometimes "just a moment" when aloud to live can be a doorway to other worlds that if left to die and vanish would go forgotten...

we shall see...for now this is enough

Sunday, December 2, 2012

to(begin again)day

today is december second
two thousand and twelve.
i am sitting on top of a mountain
of sorts...
i can see the ocean from here.
a bit of it anyway
through a misty fog.
this is not poetry.
this is simply reported fact.

today is a new day...
not unlike the day before,
but still it's own newness
should not be ignored.
even as i put my suit,
that should be dry cleaned
i suppose,
in the washer...
i work to avoid thinking
about tomorrow
and just enjoy this
mundane moment
for a change.

today is a day
that will never
happen again...
i'm gonna begin
to try to understand
that miracle
for a change
i'm gonna begin
to breathe
for a change
i'm gonna begin
to not be afraid
for a change

but please
don't take it as
the contract
of someone
you are bound
to call a hypocrite...
because maybe this
is just a poem after all
and not fact...
and today is just a day
and i am just a me
and you are just a you...
but i can almost see the ocean...
that is a fact.
and maybe just enough
to begin
again