31 days of FAITH....DAY 3.... I still think Charlie Brown rocks

         

          I had nightmares this morning.  Well, at least one nightmare.  Or is it a "morn-mare"?  Screaming, crying, crashing glass, and so on....Yeah ya know, one of those.  One of those ones that wakes you up, and there is no way you are going to go back to sleep....and why should you anyway?  I mean yes it's only 5:30 in the morning, but you have things to do...and other things to worry about.  Ok, yeah i know worrying does no good...it even says so in ancient scriptures and texts of all kinds, that worrying will do no good and not make you live any longer...but it says it for a reason...WE ALL DO IT!  It's impossible to stop.  except for this......

          Nothing is impossible.  I guess maybe it is true that in our lifetime, some things may not ever be possible....BUT...the truth is there is only one thing that is IMPOSSIBLE...and that is, being able to prove that anything is impossible.  The way I figure it is, as long as time is moving forward, there is absolutely no way to know for absolute certain what could be possible in the next moment.  Ya hear me?

          Man, I don't want this to turn into some sort of preaching blog.  Or something that you think I'm trying to teach you something that is so obvious, you wonder why I am writing it at all....Know this......I am only saying what is on my mind...If anything I am preaching to myself, as I still try to wake up from my "morn-mare"....Trying to convince myself to face the day....as you do....as we all do.

          In an old Peanuts comic strip, Lucy proclaimed to Charlie Brown once, that the meaning of life is to go back to bed and hope that tomorrow will be a better day....or maybe Charlie said it?  Of course the creator, Charles Schultz is being funny and ironic...But sometimes after years of repeating that same humor over and over, we start to believe it, because it's easier that way....Then Annie, and her little red head, belted out that she could always count on the sun coming out "Tomorrow" because "it's always a day away".....a very hopeful notion....except for this.... it's ALWAYS a day away...it's never here and now.

          So I'm not going back to sleep, not only to not go back to my morn-mares....but I'm not going back to sleep because I don't care if the sun's not shining today, and I have so much work to do that seems impossible to get it all done...and that like you, my heart broke years ago, and sometimes it just seems too hard to deal with what life and this world turned out to be...but I just don't care anymore.  OR MAYBE I DO CARE....for a change.

          Say it with me ok?  So I am not alone...   "I care" ....

          "nothing is impossible"

          "today is the best possible day to be alive"

          ok?  are we on the same page now?

          I will leave you will this thought though....I woke up feeling like death....with the world crashing in around me....then I sat down to my blog to search for some faith....no, to FIND some

          when you are needing something, don't choose to search...

          Choose to find....

           Make that choice, and....

           You will always find what you are looking for.

          I'm not super deep or anything, I swear...and I don't think I am....I'm just figuring this all out right now....just cuz I chose to try to do it out loud...with you...so thanks.

          and I sorta already knew it I guess... but saying things out loud for yourself...finding things yourself ....over and over again...new each day....that's the only way to make things stick sometimes.

           But I still think Charlie Brown rocks!